Shock + Fade

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I was watching Gerard Way's interview for NME (you can watch it below) today about his personal thoughts and life, and it really got me thinking about how I view my own life and what I make out of it.

Everyone goes through that time in their life where we feel down and depressed. I've been through it and perhaps you have too.

Fortunately for me, I recognized it early on which helped prevent a lot of unnecessary pain to me and those around me. I realized that going around being upset about life isn't going to make things any better. All this doom and gloom won't change anything for the better. And it's no use for me to be upset about it.

And so as of today, I will switch my attitude for the better. I want to live a life where I can smile and feel as if everything will be okay. If I try to look at life not as what's wrong with the world, but instead what I could do to make things better.

I've never been a self-destructing type of person, although I have had my times when I've just sat down and cried. And at the time crying really helped me release all of my pent up feelings. But it never really solved anything, it was just another way for me to escape my problems without forcing them head on.

But ever since I decided to think the best of things, I've found myself to be much happier and I think a lot of people have noticed that too. During highschool I was rather reserved and didn't speak much unless I was spoken to. And I was fine with that although I didn't make friends very easily.

Now that I'm in college, I've noticed a dramatic change in my personality. I feel that I have become much more outgoing and approachable, simply with a change of attitude. In person, I seem to be a very cheerful, and sometimes extremely quirky being, and I think that is one of the reasons why I feel happier. I really enjoy making people laugh and smile, especially if they need it. And I think that by radiating such positivity, then maybe I can make someone else happy...even if it's just for the day.

All in all, as I look back on myself I can honestly say that I've grown so much in the past few years. And that's probably what I needed all along.




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